Posts tagged change
I try to keep my blog and my podcast separate.
I like the idea that my blog comes from a different head space to my public speaking
Last year at the end of 2007 I looked back on my year and decided I would do something differently for 2008.
Because of FaceBook I am able to go back and see what that something was…
Last year at the beginning of 2008 I made a New Year’s resolution, which I typed into the New Year resolution 2008 application in FaceBook and it’s sat there for a year.
Having met adults with Aspergers who don’t have panic attacks I decided it was a separate issue.
Last year I worked on getting at their root cause.
I found out that I get socially anxious because I am socially bewildered.
Sometimes it’s amusing – most of the time I worry about it.
Basically my social anxiety is down to being different, not to any single traumatic event.
In digging this out, I have been focusing on panic and anxiety and what I can’t do, which is sickeningly frustrating.
It is time for refreshing change and my new years resolution is to FOCUS ON ALL THE THINGS I CAN DO AND HAVE FUN WITH THEM.
For 2008 I create a possibility for myself of choice, freedom and fulfilment.
And looking back on 2008 I really do believe I’m no longer socially anxious because I’ve reframed anxiety as excitement.
I am no longer focusing on panic and anxiety.
I’m focusing on whether or not things are exciting, no longer frustrating…
And yes it is a refreshing change!
I am focusing on all the things I can do and I really do believe I stood by that New Year’s resolution.
For 2009 however I’m going to do something a bit different.
I’m going to create a new affirmation, a new statement about who I am in the World.
I’m going to put that statement out there, on my blog, on my podcast.
And the reason why you can hear ‘All The Young Dudes’ playing in the background (of my podcast) is because when I was very young, this was my favourite song.
The song invokes an emotion, an emotion of who I wanted to be when I was a young child.
I remember looking at a poster of a girl in red and white striped over the knee socks with long dark hair…
I think it was one of those ‘Top Of The Pops’ covers albums – and imagining myself in the future as this cool rock star.
For me this affirmation invokes the same feelings as ‘All The Young Dudes’ – I’ve been working on this for the past couple of weeks…
So I am going to tell you what it is now.
I am going to leave it to land in the World and perhaps review it on the first of January 2010.
I am Mark
I understand and I care
For all I see is a part of me
I am at peace, free and amazing and
I accept myself with love and compassion
The river of life flows through me
I am healthy and strong, healing and healed
I am of value to the World
See you on the other side of the looking glass
Just made juice without looking at recipe and it’s really nice. Probably put a little too much celery in, need to check back. Going swimming in a minute with my son. Used to have hot chocolate after swimming and lunch at the gym. The change in routine is an annoyance, though at the same time it always annoyed me that the café didn’t sell healthy food (it’s in a gym for God’s sake). Will more than likely let my son have hot chocolate and will have a peppermint tea, then come home for lunch.
Amused by… and there is some irony in the fact that the Google Ads permanently seem to be providing a link to “C o c a C o l a” when I haven’t even mentioned it in my blog!